…I was flying to Texas to see my handsome man graduate BMT. It’s so strange that we have already come a year since that moment. A year ago tomorrow was the first time we were going to be able to see each other smile. 8 1/2 weeks without seeing your smile and waking up every Sunday with hope that I would receive a phone call. It was so strange to go from seeing each other every single day for two years to waiting on long handed letters in the mail on quick Sunday phone calls. I remember feeling excited, anixous, and nerves the morning that I was going to get to see you for the first time. I remember the moment our eyes locked and that smile as you ran by before graduation. It was such torture to not get to touch you and the fact you just ran by and I had to wait another two hours to see you again. Once graduation was finally over I ran off the blenchers through the crowds to reach you and release you from your position. That first kiss was electrifying, the world literally stopped and for those heartfilling seconds we were the only ones on that payment. That weekend with was filled with so many emotions. And everything about that weekend was amazing. It was heart breaking to watch you walk away on our last day together. Another three months apart were ahead of us at that point. It is crazy that all of that happened a year ago. Time goes so fast and I can’t imagine being on this ride with any other person.
“Always together — never apart, maybe in distance but never in heart”
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I’m freaking out inside. My man and I’s best friends where he is stationed recieved orders today for England. They haven’t even been where they are for a year. SO naturally, I freak out inside because I think my boyfriend will recieve orders when he goes into work tonight.
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If this happens….IDK WHAT I’LL DO.
*update to follow…..
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Joke within my apartment is that I’m awesome and nothing is wrong with me when we have issues with eachother….lol so this is perfect
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a [long overdue] skype date ended with him getting ready for midshift. its only been a little over a week since we said goodbye and i think i am slowly losing my mind. it doesn’t help that his service has been absolutly terrible for some reason since we parted either. i keep wondering how did i make it through all last year and why is it so much harder for me now than it was then. what was i doing differently? besides living at home with my parents. is it because now i know the only thing stopping us from being physically together is the fact that i have to finish school instead of the airforce and the fact that he was in training and tech school. with all of these emotions building up inside me. i have no doubt that we can and will make it another year but its crazy how distance smacks you in the face and lately it has been smacking me hard. he still makes me feel incrediable inside and i fall in love with him over and over again just by the way he looks at me and how well he puts up with my craziness. but distance is slowly making me feel like whatever i do its not enough and that i am going to lose him, even though i know that thought is crazy, it still manages to creep into my mind because hey im a girl and right now i am hormonal and i think that i love him more than he loves me just because i tend to express it more. i can’t stand the feeling of being weak and i refuse to give into distance and the thoughts that creep into my mind. distance may be smacking me right now but i will hit back harder no matter how it makes me feel because i know our love, this wait, and the pain of distance is worth it. because when you are in love with your best friend nothing not even a little distance can stand in your way of happily ever after. and because its us against the world and i will never back down from this fight towards our forever <3
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If this is how it has to be then I promise that I would rather be living away from you than living without you period. I may be tired of being apart but I know the end is going to be worth the waiting.
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I’m fighting to keep depression from taking over my mind. I thought getting back into the routine of working and classes would help me block the miles from my mind….but its only making it worse. I just want to see you face and talk to you. I’m tired of dealing with the conflicting schedules and crappy service. I know its too much to ask…but can it be a year from now already…please….
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Going from being together back to here and there text messages and 10 min phone calls before work. Oh and add on the dreams I have that seem so real and make me believe you’re right next to me until I wake up. My heart hurts and I hate this.
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![a [long overdue] skype date ended with him getting ready for midshift. its only been a little over a week since we said goodbye and i think i am slowly losing my mind. it doesn’t help that his service has been absolutly terrible for some reason since we parted either. i keep wondering how did i make it through all last year and why is it so much harder for me now than it was then. what was i doing differently? besides living at home with my parents. is it because now i know the only thing stopping us from being physically together is the fact that i have to finish school instead of the airforce and the fact that he was in training and tech school. with all of these emotions building up inside me. i have no doubt that we can and will make it another year but its crazy how distance smacks you in the face and lately it has been smacking me hard. he still makes me feel incrediable inside and i fall in love with him over and over again just by the way he looks at me and how well he puts up with my craziness. but distance is slowly making me feel like whatever i do its not enough and that i am going to lose him, even though i know that thought is crazy, it still manages to creep into my mind because hey im a girl and right now i am hormonal and i think that i love him more than he loves me just because i tend to express it more. i can’t stand the feeling of being weak and i refuse to give into distance and the thoughts that creep into my mind. distance may be smacking me right now but i will hit back harder no matter how it makes me feel because i know our love, this wait, and the pain of distance is worth it. because when you are in love with your best friend nothing not even a little distance can stand in your way of happily ever after. and because its us against the world and i will never back down from this fight towards our forever <3](http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m4gg22klY91r2p2wio1_1280.png)
